I could give you all kinds of excuses for why I haven't been working very much on the proper topic for today's blog post. "Russian hackers" would be a good one, and might even be true. Based on the usage stats for my website, either my writing is super-popular in Russia or I'm a prime target for some kind of scam mechanisms.
A resurgence in my fanfic writing could also be to blame, though most of you are probably just as happy to see that, given the point we're approaching in DV. Even the weather could bear a portion of the responsibility. In reality, though, there isn't an easy, clear-cut answer as to why I'm making such slow progress on Playing with Fire.
I suppose part of the problem is what part of the problem always is. I'm afraid. I see how much everyone enjoys what I've already written, and I'm afraid that I can't possibly do that again. That whatever I do this time out, it won't measure up to what I did before. That I'll disappoint everyone, and you'll drift away and never return.
Logically, I know this is a silly standpoint to take. The easiest way I could possibly alienate you, after all, O readers, is to stop producing words for you to read! But when was the last time emotions were logical? And so, I must thump the fear over its pointy little head with the club of "shut up and go away" before I can continue.
It sometimes helps me to have an external goal to reach, like a word count I want to hit each day, or finishing a chapter in a week. Perhaps should I start posting snippets again on Thunder Thursdays, and make it my goal to have at least five thousand words written before I am allowed to put up another snippet? Would that be welcome?
If I can just get past this dry time in the story, round about Chapter 9, I have a fairly good chance of getting into clear running for a while, since I'm paralleling Widow and I'll be able to use its timeline for reference, to keep things moving along well. There'll be a few other dry spells, I'm sure, and a total crisis or two. There always are.
So, in conclusion, there hasn't been much progress since the last time I blogged about this topic, but I will make it my business to improve on that state of affairs by the next time I so blog. Snippet of Playing with Fire next Thursday sound good? Either a revamped version of one from September, or totally new material?
And now, I must be off. I actually have to do some work (shocking, I know) and then there is Surpassing Danger to be written. Happy National Chopstick Day, everyone! Order Chinese food and give them a try! Thanks as always for reading, and don't forget Twitter (@AnneBWalsh) and Facebook and all that good stuff!