Someone asked me today in a review if I have ever considered posting the Dangerverse on Archive Of Our Own. While I have, I'm a bit hesitant, for a couple of reasons. First, unless I'm mistaken, AO3 is an HTML site, which means I would have to redo all the formatting, in all the chapters. That's a LOT of words to cover.
But that's really only my knee-jerk response, which doesn't get to the root of my reluctance. AO3 is a site devoted to serious, important fan fiction. I don't consider that I write such. I know how much you all love the Dangerverse (certainly the engagement numbers on the Facebook page go down when I'm not updating) but...
Flashback to 2004. I was just getting my feet wet in the HP fandom, trying to write a year six story and a many-years-later story at the same time, but this little idea about starting from scratch and giving Harry a family wouldn't leave me alone. I decided to set up an account and scribble it down quickly, get it out of my head, make it go away.
Nine years later, that idea never has gone away. Instead it's gone viral, if you will, and I very often find myself more than a little puzzled by the turns my life took in consequence. Almost every aspect of me, from the personal to the professional, has been shaped by my writing of the Dangerverse, and honestly, that can be a bit scary.
There used to be seven paragraphs of whiny, self-pitying angst here, but they have been removed on the grounds that you don't need that. Suffice it to say that as fond as I am of the DV, I don't know if I want to hand a new group of people the recorded fumblings and bumblings of that novice writer who was me nearly a decade ago.
Of course, I know this doesn't make much sense, because any time anybody new starts reading my work on fanfiction or fanficauthors, aren't they seeing exactly the same thing the AO3 readers would see? They are, of course, but they came to me. I didn't go to them. It's the same reason I'm terrified every time I put out a new original.
This feeling may be the doom of my career as a writer, at least as an independent writer, because from all I've ever heard you have to go out and sell yourself if you want to succeed. Unfortunately I loathe pushing people to do things (I doubt I could make a "hard sell" if my life depended on it) and I take every rejection I receive personally.
This isn't really the blog post I set out to write, but it's what came out when I sat down at the keyboard so I guess it wanted to be said. I am still working on Surpassing Danger and will update probably late next week. As for posting on new sites, or learning to sell myself... honestly, I don't know what I should or will do with either.